I was laying in bed feeling like I was going to emotionally die. So I sent a desperate message begging one woman to respond. Only then did I get a response.
Me: "Please say something. Anything. Please."
Her reply: "Hey!!!! I actually meant to write you back. lol"
I said "thank god", I felt better, and we chatted. There was nothing between us. But I felt so much better.
I sent that message to several other women who hadn't replied. No answer. She was the only one who had a child. She also is the the farthest one from me, almost 100 miles away. I live in New Braunfels, TX. I think those are factors that should be noted. It should also be noted that these messages were not genuinely desperate, like the first.
Today I published the designed profile. Screen name "thecharity". I honestly felt fine after that one woman talked to me, even though it was a very short conversation. It made all the pain go away. But my thoughts and feelings, and this experience, doesn't help anybody if it's not out in the open. Here it is.
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