Thursday, February 19, 2015

A Rhapsody About the Pursuit of Truth

Wrote this last year in the middle of a bunch of stuff.


Don't know what I would do if it weren't for the life.
Lighting the way, one step at a time.
To the secret places, right before everyone's eyes.
You pass them every day,
and use them on your way, never knowing the very ground
on which your life is laid.
You see, but do you observe?
The secret passages are curious, tempting, addictive.
Exploring rabbit holes to infinity,
discovering creativity.
Can you find your way back
when all you see is black?
Do you know this space?
Is something on your face?
Your friends can't come to your quiet place.
Thinking "shortcuts in the underbelly", but the truth is in the feeling.
Just beneath the surface,
everything's inertial.
You see the light,
but nothing is right.
Next time you come, it'll be night.
Back on the surface you can hardly stand it.
This dude and that noose walking all over what was commanded.
You're not on the surface,
you're still swimming in subversion.
You'll never be the same,
you've seen from where it all came.
You'll carry it with you wherever you move.
The depth in your eyes is something too soon for the moos that presume they are made to be food.
You've exhumed the roots and brought them with you.
See, everything's fine as long as they continue to work for a dime, sell all their time,
and pretend that the momentary thrill of a shrill fake other life is the bottom line.
They'll see your tricks and thoughts
and be moved with emotion,
but when a change needs to be made,
it might as well be an explosion.
"It's about to collapse!",
but they clap at the calamity befalling your hat,
while the underbelly moves and shifts.
Things start to crumble,
the people stumble,
the humble fumble
and bumble their way.
Death, loss, might as well be moss.
They throw you on the pavement and tell you it's your fault,
"We told you not to go".
And it's all you can do not to slit their fucking throats.
If it weren't for you they would have never been warned,
and they have no idea what you've been doing to keep their families warm.
You've been doing a job no one wanted to do,
facing things alone you should've never gone through.
A part of you loved it, loved every minute,
but the world's on your shoulders when you're down in the pit.
You're in the most dangerous spot,
but it's nothing compared to being called what you're not.

You are right in the middle of everything, in a place nobody will ever be able to find. Not for those who see, but for those who observe. Not just for those who observe, but for those who explore. And not just those who explore, but those who discover.

Will Quoting Scripture Make Christianity Irrelevant? Not Exactly

In response to this article. I somewhat support it, I just disagree with the headline. I think the pastor has his head on straight.

I don't think Christianity will be irrelevant if it continues quoting the bible. I think it will be irrelevant if christians continue quoting it to nonbelievers, or quoting only the parts that contribute to the point they're trying to make instead of just trying to understand the whole and contribute to a larger effort to understand the truth. So often do they forget that Moses and others argued with God and actually convinced God to change the plan. Or how about the entire new testament? Or maybe they haven't even finished the old testament. As long as it's about ego instead of truth, it's not doing any good. Nobody likes it. Even christians don't want any part of it. Even bigoted argumentative christians--the ones who do this--don't like it. Nobody knows everything there is to know about anything. Until Christianity in culture becomes a symbol of that concept, it's screwed in America.

Closed minded arguments are significantly different from open-minded debates. A skill this country is lacking, that the church could be leading in by example. Instead much of the church tends to empower hate, fakeness, and blind belief. But we can't say anything about it because they do it "in the name of love". If it's not in the name of truth, it's not truly in love.

You can't browbeat people with scripture. Jesus loved everyone. He only spoke about scripture with the rabbis. And when he did he mostly only asked questions. Idk why this is so hard to understand. You can talk about the bible getting jacked with over the centuries all you want, but that stuff is still there.

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Cheap Prosthetic Limbs; The Info Age Offers Hope for the World

(TL;DR at bottom)

http://garbimba.com/2015/02/19-year-old-who-built-a-350-robotic-arm-teaches-you-how-to-build-it-free/

People wonder why I am so bitter. I've been called a "hater" many times. I've argued against that, but I'm really trying to cleanse myself of that behavior right now and become a more positive person. But this is why it's so difficult for me. I knew about this technology and about how cheaply it could be made when I first ever heard about prosthetic limbs and learned how much they cost. My father and grandfather were inventors, I studied to be an engineer for a while, and my entire life revolves around learning everything and figuring out the impossible problems. So when I heard, and hear, that the standard price for a prosthetic limb can be 6 figures, it takes everything in me not to go absolutely fucking apeshit with anger.

I'm like Bruce Banter; peaceful scientist who just wants to figure shit out and help the world, who believes in so much. He wants to cure the evil. But when so many do not, and stand in his way of helping, for no good reason, he flips out and turns into the Hulk, instead attempting to destroy the evil, with little regard to collateral damage. My philosophy name (like a rap name) happens to be "Destroyer of Knowledge". "Hater of Haters". "Bitter Bemoaner of Bitterness".

It's hard for me not to be angry because I know what we are capable of, I know what is possible, and perhaps more pertinently, I know what we've already done (and btw, what this kid did, had already been done several times with older tech). But people don't believe in anything. Money? They fight each other, they put each other down, companies and governments suppress innovation and consolidate power... This is the third or fourth time we have had electric cars in this country--Tesla is not the first; just the first to not get erased from existence by big oil and big auto, but I respect them for choosing such a defiant name. There's just so much useless hate. And in my foolishness, I respond to it with more hate.

I am not a terrorist, but I tell you honestly that I can sympathize with a certain brand of terrorist. Because I feel so powerless, useless, against a world that is against everything I stand for. I have fantasized about watching an entire building of some evil corporation explode. I have sworn to myself that if I ever meet certain individuals in real life that I will thrust my fist straight into their face. I've even thought about hanging myself in a place where people would notice and the scene would make an important statement. These aren't acts of hate so much as they are feelings of desperation. I would never do any of those things. I've only raised my hand to another human being twice, in self defense in a bad neighborhood (and I was punished for it, btw). It's emotions. I feel completely powerless. It's like the world is against LIFE, so if I want to live, I have to fight for it. I hate fighting, so I hate the world.

I have seen people in my life who stand for love and spread that love message, but I just don't see them making a big impact, compared to the hate. People don't listen. I don't listen. And when I do spread a message of love, people don't seem to hear it. Maybe I'm not paying attention. Maybe I can bring some innovation to the "love strategy". Maybe I should pay more attention to my heroes like Martin Luther King Jr, Burzynski, Aaron Swartz, Elon Musk, Ensemble Studios, Jesus... The love that the close friends in my life have given me is very precious, but maybe I'm underestimating the impact those small instances have on the bigger picture.

I feel like I can't even write this candid post--which could be a reassuring, cathartic, empowering read for many--without losing out on job opportunities, getting harassed by the TSA at the airport, losing business, or being judged as "unfriendable" and "undateable". But I'm doing it anyways because I choose to live my life and fulfill my purpose. Not the right time or place? Maybe the right time and place is when you feel it.


TL;DR:

My current theory is this: it's not love or hate that will change the world, but truth. There is a time and place for both love and hate. But it does a person no good to live in hate. The individual should live in love for the sake of life. Whatever life they can claim or create, it comes from love. Perhaps lies are the only thing worth hating--but really we should love them for forcing us to grow and explore our minds. We are in the information age, so the truth will come out, even if it has to be re-discovered, like with this prosthetic. I think we will work our way out of our big problems because of it. From these recent observations, like the prosthetic limb, my faith has grown. I am so deeply thankful for the progress I am observing, and the potential that is emerging. It's very subtle, but it's very much there. We are laying the foundation for real growth in the next epoch of human existence. Digging the well toward the water of new life. The human spirit is truly undying. It is clear to me now that our progress is an unstoppable force. And from this mental place I will continue to grow my faith and love. I'm really starting to feel like the world can take care of itself and my ego can take a rest (permanently, please). I cannot wait to see what my generation does in my lifetime. I will focus at ease on my part. And I hope if you're reading this, you'll be around for everything.

Sincerely,
Salvatore

Sunday, February 8, 2015

My Year-Long Sugar Fast of 2014

Last year my 2014 resolution was to break whatever addiction my body had to sugar and observe the health benefits. What I found was, everyone should do it.

In 2013 it had been a growing concern that they put too much sugar and sweeteners in everything we eat, to the point of toxicity in some cases. If my body was encumbered by this in any way, I wanted to be free. So I figured a sugar fast for 2014 must have good results. It did. The experiment went very well. And I didn't even do it perfectly. So before you go thinking "there's no way I could last a whole year without sugar", you should read on for more details about how exactly I accomplished this. It's a lot easier than you think. Here's a short report about my experience and what you can probably expect if you decide to try it.



Major Findings:

- My addiction to sugar was real even though I already had a pretty healthy diet low in sugar.

- My addiction to sugar has almost completely disappeared. Definitely at a realistic level.

- I have a lot more energy.

- 10 days will definitely not do it. (as recommended by the documentary 'Fed Up')

- I feel way more in-touch with my body. I feel like it's more disciplined and primed for success. I think that's why I now have a growing aversion to beef and grease.



Diet Guidelines:

- No sugar as an ingredient to anything. Even if it's organic cane sugar or cane syrup. As much as you can help it.

- No corn syrup as an ingredient in anything.

- No artificial sweeteners. These will jack you up worse than sugar. Splenda, Nutrasweet, Equal, SweetNLow, sucrose, sucralose, aspartame-- all off-limits. Btw, nothing--NOTHING--just "passes through your system".

- Yes to sugar that naturally occurs, like in fruit or vegetables. So fruit is okay. Just maintain a reasonable portion of it. Remember that fruit is very rare in the wild. NO to any juice product that adds sugar.

- Yes to real local honey, especially if it's just a little bit once every few days in some tea or something. Again, just don't overdo it. Treat it like a delicacy. But it is natural enough that my system had no issues with it.

- Generally, no dessert. If you have to, have a banana and a protein shake before bed and it'll knock you right out.

- Remember soda and other drinks have sugar and aspartame too (but this is for you because I already hated soda)


Also I did eat Clif bars from time to time, which are made with organic cane syrup. I go on too many adventures to deal with life without them. But I will say they are the most healthy portable food of their kind. I kept them to a minimum, and I stayed away from the flavors with extra icing and chocolate.



TIMELINE
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My philosophy with new years resolutions is to not make them about just doing a thing religiously. Instead, I see the turn of a new year as a developmental checkpoint. Am I better off than I was last year at this time? Have I grown and developed closer to the person I really want to be? What can I do this year that will make me feel better about who I am becoming this time next year? It's about improving my quality of life.

Therefore, I've already decided I'm not going to beat myself up every time I accidentally eat sweets. The resolution isn't a failure just because I messed up a few times. It's only a failure if I don't feel like I made real progress by the end of the year. You should never let your resolution ruin your quality of life as you try to carry it out.

One way you do that is choosing the right resolutions. So my resolution isn't really  "I'm not going to eat sugar the entire year." Its "I want to free my body from sugar addiction".



The First 3 Months:

With that philosophy in mind, the first step was to start reading labels as I buy food, removing and replacing things from my diet that have sugar in them as they come up. I thought this would take about a month, and the real test would begin probably at the start of February. So If I accidentally ate sugar, or just succumbed to temptation, I wasn't going to beat myself up. January is my time to adapt to my new resolution.

And it's a good thing because I can't tell you how many times I was offered free dessert within the first two weeks. The universe always does that, right? Well finally someone offered me an entire chocolate cake they were going to throw out, and I said "yes". I went home and ate that entire goddamn cake. The entire thing. One sitting. Take that, universe. And I think that even broke the curse because after that it was easy.

Well, it took three. Three months just to replace everything in my diet with food that didn't have added sugar or artificial sweeteners. I had no idea just how extensive this problem with our food was.

But at the end of 3 months, not even being fully off sugar yet, I was already experiencing withdrawal. You would not believe how many ice cream trucks are on the road that you just never notice. I caught myself unconsciously fixating on Blue Bell and Ben & Jerry's logos.

I also noticed that whenever I would accidentally eat something sugary, my stomach would get upset within a few minutes, and then the next day my energy would be completely shot. Later on I figured out why this was.



6 Months, June:

The same symptoms of energy crashes persisted for a while, but there was a good 6 week period where I had no sweets at all. Then I did have some accidentally, but the next-day crash was significantly less.

The withdrawal tapered off during this time and I was no longer noticing ice cream trucks around town.

Progress!



9 Months, September:

It was some time during this period that I noticed a documentary about added sugar and artificial sweeteners had been released earlier in the year called "Fed Up". It's with Katie Couric. And in that documentary they encouraged everyone to take the "challenge" of going 10 days without added sugar or artificial sweeteners. The diet was exactly like mine.

I can't even begin to tell you the thoughts I had about that. I'll just say this. It took me 3 months just to get the sugar out of my diet; just to stop saying "oops, looks like I can't eat that, oops, not that either". And another 3 for it to even start doing any good. And these guys are suggesting 10 days... let's just move on.

By now I could actually taste the sugar or sweetener in something without even looking at the label. Like at restaurants or at a friend's house. It always had a subtle cheap taste to it.

I realized also that whenever I would accidentally have sweets, I didn't have any crash the next day. None.

I really wasn't expecting that. So I did some research and came to the understanding that when you have a lot of sugar in your diet, your body gets used to that and becomes lazy about breaking down carbohydrates into sugars like it's supposed to. Often it just stores those carbs as fat for a rainy day. The carbs you eat have a lot more energy potential than straight sugars, so when your body is relying on straight sugar, you have less energy. Your body basically gets "spoiled". But if you take away the sugar long enough, it'll get accustomed to carbs. It won't just drop everything at the sight of sugar anymore. It'll take that sugar and just throw it in the mix with the other sugar it's getting from the carbs.

This is exactly what had happened to me. My body was no longer addicted to sugar!



12 Months, December:

I was able to enjoy the holidays, with sweets in moderation, with virtually no negative effects.

I have a lot more energy. My body seems more awake, alive, and adaptable. It's also a little easier for me to feel what my body needs.

Sweets simply don't have that same punch that they used to when I taste them. I have a scoop of ice cream every once in a while, and I gotta tell ya, it's a pretty forgettable experience.

The only other weird finding is that I just don't like red meat as much anymore. I haven't done the research to see what that might have to do with sugar, but I suspect that my body simply "leveled up" to a higher state of health and awareness, and that maybe there's some truth to the theory that red meat is bad for you.



Why I recommend the diet:

1) All the health! Good feels! More energy! Weight loss!
2) It will encourage food producers to stop pumping their products full of sugar and make our food more healthy!

Let's support brands that actually care about what they're doing, and the others to follow suit. In the meantime, we can all become healthier, happier, more free individuals.